Unexpected

On her knees, face buried in the floor, tears were streaming down her blood-rushed face. Praying, and praying hard, the Holy Ghost had blessed her with His presence. She was on a high, and drugs could never match it. She wasn’t even looking to find God that night, and she definitely wasn’t listening to the curb-dwelling preachers. In some hidden home with a woman she hardly knew, her eyes were opened to her almighty God.
Only an hour ago her complete intentions were to shoot up again, maybe take a few too many pills. She even had a loaded pistol in her car, and her temple yearned to feel that cold unwelcomed strangeness. Someone like her had no business in Heaven or eternal life. Hell would be her home. An eternal death was all that she deserved. But somehow, she ended up in this house, and she knew with conviction that God was with her now, and would be forever. She could be so much more through Him then she ever was before.
A mama with out the custody of her kids, an ex wife who was lost in the world. She fell hard and fast, only twenty-two and on her own. She fought through her life, and was hopelessly addicted to that which slowly sucked her life away. Now she lay in tears at the blessing arising. The feeling she felt, she was one with God, she was better than who she was.
Her mind wandered now, in attempt to figure out how she got to where she lay now. Long blonde stringy hair wisped in the harsh cold winds. Her face was washed out, and her arms were bruised. Brown eyes searched the city streets, desperate for an escape from this life. What she liked to call “Bible Thumpers” were perched on almost every street corner preaching of a God she questioned if they followed. Their words were meaningless to her, absolutely meaningless. She had a much different fate in mind then the happiness of the eternal life they spoke of.
Finally, she found her beat up ragged car parked on the side of the road where she left it. Sitting in the front seat her shivering hands loaded the gun she had only just illegally bought. Sitting it down in the passenger seat the franticly searched her worn out leather purse for her two most important contents, a needle fresh with heroin, and a bottle filled with ecstasy. A belt pulled tight on her upper arm, she shook as she bit the lid off the needle. With the sky growing dark she jumped when there was a sudden tap on her window. She sat down her needle and hesitantly opened the car door. This is where God started today’s journey.
A woman, she had never seen stood before her. This wasn’t surprising seeing as she rarely paid any attention to the world around her. “ Would you come with me please?” Her voice was soft and reassuring. Almost involuntarily she stood and followed, leaving behind her gun, pills and needle. Gracefully the woman stepped through the woods and she followed without a word. The tree’s reached down, and from the city back roads they had ventured into an entirely new wonderland. Snow trickled off the trees onto her hair, but she was so numb she couldn’t feel the sting of the morbidly cold weather.
On this unexpected adventure she had learned what honest confusion was. To ignore the questions without answers, she watched this strange woman. Her hair was wavy, and it only reached her shoulders. The dark brown contrasted against the delicate white snow. Her body was slim, and she seemed simple, quaint, and yet very content with her life. She wondered how this woman lived this way. All she ever wished was to be happy with her self.
They reached a small house, surrounded by nothing more than trees and nature itself. Being in the presence of this strange place gave her an intense feeling of security. She was sure her life was changing moment by moment. Everything felt so real, and as the numbness wore away she felt the sting of the snow hit her face.
She never doubted, never questioned, but followed a strange lady into a comforting home. Suddenly, an elated sensation washed over her. She sat on the couch, placed in a simple fashion with the rest of the furniture pieces. There another journey took place, through a conversation between the two of them, lines were crossed and there was no return.
Words were shared of a God that has yearned for her soul this entire time. She wasn’t alone. She was never alone. Everything she questioned, she was a fool to question the Almighty! He touched her through a woman whose name she never caught. The Holy Spirit lived inside of her and she was not her own.
On her knee’s, crying out in joy. She was found tonight. She felt, she loved, and life was real. Everything was real. Everything would be okay from here on out. She is God’s child. A smile on her face, she looked to the Heavens with appreciation.

By: Andria Dawn 11-10-09