Lonely /:

^ this is Lite the kitten. David and my little Kitty.

Anxiety.
I wish it was as easy to handle as people believe.
I struggle.
I know,
I can do all things through Christ,
but I am human,
and lets face it,
we all struggle.

Have you ever felt so alone,
even though you weren't?
I sure do.

The people who used to love my unique sense on life,
now criticize me over it.
The people who said they would always be there,
have their own cliques now.
The people who praised me for not judging them,
haven't hesitated to judge me by what they don't know.

I have a background,
I have history,
my life hasn't always been peachy.
I HAVE done good for myself.
But that doesn't come into the equation,
because everyone is quick to assume the worst.

I have a lot to handle,
just like we all do.
I have huge dreams,
I want to reach out to the unloved.
Unfortunately the people who used to support that,
they would now rather stay in their comfort zones.

So, I feel alone.
But my God is stronger.
So I will continue through this struggle.

Godbless
-andriadawn

Today is a new day

A new day.
Another battle.
Another choice.

Finding myself.
Yeah right.
I can't do the impossible.

So. I found a kitten starving behind the dumpster at work.
He needs a lot of help.
David said if the vet bill wouldn't be too bad we could keep him.
(I think David likes him.)
But we may have to give him away.

Anyway, I'm falling in love with the little guy.
 Would I be crazy to say I miss my high school?
I miss my friends.
or at least, the closet I had.
I miss my teachers.
People who believed in me and encouraged me.

But here I am,
heading into junior college.
Things are changing.
The trick is,
allowing it to be God to change them.

I feel disconnected today,
like I'm rambling.
Sorry about that.

There have been a few things to knock me off track lately.
Satan has finally managed to get under my skin.
I'm fighting it though.

Now I have to go.
I have a bunny and a kitten to take care of.
Thank you  for listening to my rambling today,
sorry for the pointlessness.